Originally from Damariscotta, Maine, in my late 40’s and have been married 20+ yrs with two young adult children. Registered nurse with over 20 yrs years of experience. I am passionate about helping others navigate through life, learning new things and rocks. Seriously, I love rocks!
I was born in 1971 to a couple of wild and crazy parents. They were a young 20 yrs old with a two year old and newborn identical twins. We are lucky we survived! Growing up with Walter and Vikki was a made for TV sitcom. They were active in the theatre, professional DJ’s and constant entertainment. My brother was born legally blind. I can recall him chasing us around the house and running into trees because he couldn’t see where he was going. My sister is well known as ‘the evil twin’ in that she has always been a handful. I share stories in my blog to help you get an understanding of what I’ve experienced so far.
I became a Registered nurse in my mid twenties. I originally went for Psychology, but didn’t do very well academically. I thought it would be best to steer clear since my response to ‘what would you say to this mentally ill patient’ was always wrong. Funny how that came full circle with my son, who was diagnosed with bipolar and I was actually really good at it! He went through severe bullying from the 6th grade on. We switched schools a couple of times and even took out a loan to send him to Jesus school. That didn’t work either. We used unconventional methods to help him grow and he’s getting stronger every day! During the same time, my daughter was diagnosed with a rare autoimmune disorder at 14. Took a couple of years and many painful doctor visits to finally get a diagnosis. There were also multiple hospital stays, feeding tubes and infusions that she still gets every month to this day. My husband is a recovering alcoholic and I love him more and more every day. That's a whole other story that I will share at some point.
I lost my mother in August of 2015 to mesothelioma. We brought her home to die and I didn’t leave her side for 30 days. That was very hard, but also provided many blessings. Less than a year later my father committed suicide on Father’s Day. I was able to talk to both of my parents, tell them how much I appreciated and loved them for who they were and hold them when it came time for them to leave this world. I consider that a huge gift.
I have been diagnosed with multiple birth defects that causes nerve pain. I had brain surgery twice and suffered a few complications. I have been through the medical system on both sides and I know first hand how frustrating, lonely and biased it can be. That's why I jumped off that crazy train and decided to dive deeper into other forms of healing.
That is just a snapshot of my history and now I’m going to tell you how my life path took a major fork in the road.
In February of 2016 I had to stop working on the labor and delivery unit due to some health issues. I lost 3cm of muscle mass on my right side and I was struggling to get through each shift. After months of doctor appointments I was told that I needed to go to the ALS clinic in Boston. This was a really low point for me in that I loved my job and wasn’t good at laying around waiting for answers. I ended up in bed for a few months just shutting down physically and mentally. I had to really think about the choice I was faced with, to fight this or not. Basically, do I want to live or die. I found it hard to walk any distance or climb stairs. Those few months are known as the ‘dark night of the soul’. It’s an opportunity for rebirth or to 'awaken'. After considering my options and going deep into my soul, I decided to choose life! I had this knowing that each one of us has the ability to change our reality. To become our authentic selves and find our true purpose in life. So we don't have to come back again in another lifetime to go through the same bullshit over again to grow energetically. I wasn't done yet. Everything I've been through has to serve some purpose for my evolvement as well as the whole collective. That's when I got up out of bed and walked outside. I took off my socks and walked to the backyard where I laid down in the grass. I felt the earth under me, I saw the richness in the colors around me and I listened to the music of the wind in the trees with the birds singing along. Then I was surrounded by dragonflies. They danced around me as I felt myself waking up. Healing through mother earth.
As I started to heal on a much deeper level the universe apparently wasn't done with me yet. In May of 2018 we lost our house in an accidental fire. Thank God none of us were home at the time. I found myself completely stripped of any material attachments, having to start over and figure out where I wanted to go and who I wanted to be. That was one of the hardest lessons of my life.
From that point on I researched spirituality, natural healing methods, intuition and my own body wisdom. It was the start of an amazing journey to wellness. That included the realization that I was finally on the path I was meant to be on at this time in my life. I embraced my natural ability to connect with God, spirit and my higher self. I'm excited to share my experiences and help others heal and grow with me.